1 year later

1 year later

Happy Sad Anniversary. And what a year it has been. We have seen some shit. Rounding a year since this sad anniversary, I’ve been taking stock of what has transpired and been -frankly- so impressed we survived it. Marking time as the years pass, as your kids,...
The well worn path

The well worn path

Someone special passed away recently. Not having seen them for about 18 years didn’t diminish the shock and the pain. Grief is always surprising, the way it ebbs and flows and hits in different ways, distinct only to the person impacted. The sadness that...
To Shame or to Guilt, that is the question

To Shame or to Guilt, that is the question

My therapist dropped a whopper on my lap this last session. She knows me well enough now that she saved the hard stuff for the end of the session, and when she saw me unravelling before her eyes she said: it’s ok. We are at the end for today. You can sit with...
Is this mine to do?

Is this mine to do?

I’ve learned a bit about myself these last few months. It’s a strange thing to finally start to understand yourself better at an age that feels like the middle. Though when I think about how much I’ve learned at 40, it makes me excited for 50....
Lessons in Therapy – Part 3

Lessons in Therapy – Part 3

There is a reason for my silence on this blog in the last few months. I guess you could say, things were getting super serious. Therapy with G was going well (see Part 1 and Part 2 for background) in that she had encouraged me on the progress made over the last year,...
Lessons in Therapy – Part 2

Lessons in Therapy – Part 2

An update to the previous update, found HERE. Did I just need to pay someone to be a cheerleader in this sobriety journey? Possibly. I honestly thought that’s what all of you were here for. This blog-style relationship has not been one-sided and the absolute...